Feelings

Me

Hey are you ok?… Do you want to talk?…no I’m fine…I’m ok…the biggest lie I tell when really I am screaming so fucking loud inside my head …just let me go I’m not worth anyones time or love I’m so fucking tired of being me…I just don’t want to be me anymore…I’m just done…I can’t take the stress of constantly being overwhelmed constantly having to fix everything else so I don’t have to deal with myself,constantly feeling every little thing so intensely it’s debilitating, never having the energy to do any housework or spend time with the ones I love I am sick of feeling everything is my fault that I am just a bane on ppl’s existence I’m tired of being me…I’m just so tired…I’m exhausted from disassociating because stupid little things trigger me I’m tired of keeping my mouth shut when I know I should stand up for myself I’m tired of hurting myself because I want to feel different I’m tired of wishing I wasn’t here or to b “normal”