Spinning out

I’m already having a hard time, beyond our very recent TFMR there are multiple other factors complicating life right now.

My mom is here to help. I need her help taking care of my 3 yr old while I recover from an injury. I have witnessed her return with my child unsafely strapped into her car seat multiple times. She has been shown how to perform this multiple times by multiple people and today she turned to ask me how to fucking release the tension on the straps and I lost it.

I am TERRIFIED that I am going to lose my healthy child just because of where the TFMR has put me mentally and this is pushing me over the edge. I AM SO AFRAID ALL THE TIME. I feel so helpless with respect to the safety of my child(ren?). Spinning out completely. How could I survive the loss of my 3 year old? I feel so out of control and alone and absolutely terrified!!!!