I want to be CNC’ed without the C by a woman? Why do I want this?

I want to start by saying I’m a taken 24M with an awesome gf. Also trigger warning ⚠️

I’m not sure what’s up with me, I just have this really weird and dark fantasy and I need help picking apart my brain.

I want to be rped by a woman… Weird I know. It doesn’t even have to be my gf. I want a hot woman to forcefully use me and make my cum inside her. Pure being tied up and gagged while she rides my dick until I beg her to stop and she doesn’t. I find it even hotter for some reason when in the dreams the girl tells me she doesn’t care if I have a gf. She’s going to keep rping me anyways… other stuff too but I won’t go into too much detail.

Is there something wrong with me? I need help. Please just be brutally honest, I need to know if this is normal to want sometimes as a guy.