why am I like this

for reference I am still a teenager but for the past forever I’ve been wanting a relationship. recently, this guy started chatting it up with me and I just can’t want him even though he’s cute and I do like him but I just hate texting him. Like I go ghost and I don’t even want to and I feel bad doing it because I like him and ugh idk what I want. I’ve never had a guy like me before and idk if he liked me idk where this is going ugh plz help I’m so lost