anybody else wish the accusations were false

for so long now i've been heartbroken over the allegations being proven. i was in denial for like the first few weeks, but once the proof got outted, it was over. i'm friends with his old producer, zilla is literally the reason i started making heavier music, it hurts yk? i wish that there was anything to prove his innocence, anything at all.

i know ppl say to separate art from the artist, but as a victim of grooming/child exploitation & sa myself, i cannot support him in any way. i miss vibing to his harder shit with my mom & listening to the sad shit when i was down. i miss finding new leaks. i was literally in the bottom of the barrel tour vid from 2021. this shit sucks ass man