22m incel what should I do?

I am 22m and never touched a women. I don't even have friends. Since high school I never hung out with a single person in my age group outside of work or college. Due to religious reasons l've never really been in coed environments (including through undergrad).

Since the age of 18 l started falling down rabbit holes like alt-right/ incel forums. Although I don't agree with the hate or all of there assessments it's a little irrelevant to me. Whether due to looks, sociability, "vibes", or a combination it never happened for me.

Truthfully I somewhat mourn the fact that am never gonna have the youthful love or the beatitude others in my age group have. To supplement this lack of a life I have paid women online to be my friend, act as my f or even degrade me (30k+).

A part of me wants to still fight back! I start law school this August and it will be my first time around normies (none freaks l.e myself) and in a co-d environment. Maybe I should go to the gym, cut out toxic online everything and wait around after class and make friends. Who knows maybe all become a lover of life again!

Maybe all, like many men never have that youthful love and just settle in my 30s when more women settle down for marriage.

Like most things in life am sure it will work itself out.Either by learning how to cope, by me fixing myself, or becoming more entrenched in the forums I frequents beliefs. Maybe just by being exposed to more social environments this August my mind will be blown and everything I knew will be a lie. Either way I love cats, men I trust and comics and anyone who doesn't is missing out.