Father’s Day Thoughts

I’m feeling more and more lonely on Father’s Day. It’s been 9 years since my dad passed away and Father’s Day is still hard. It feels like it’s gotten harder over the years though and I’m having trouble talking to anyone about it. The last few years, my mom has gone golfing with her dad to celebrate. It is something they strongly bond over, do together and I truly love the relationship they have (my grandpa is incredible). But that is a good 4/5+ hours of the day that I am just alone. One of my brothers lives nearby but has a young family of his own so they spend Father’s Day together. My other brother and his wife live out of state. It feels like my grief on Father’s Day is getting more potent over the years, which I wasn’t expecting (but that’s grief for you, nothing can be expected). It just feels harder and something I don’t want to burden others with or take away from their own celebrations, but it really is amplifying my loneliness. I want to get myself outside and moving to honor and celebrate my dad today, but it just all feels so heavy.