Attracted to the thought of it but I’ve never experienced it

I’m 18f. The thought of being with my dad turns me on, but it’s just a fantasy that I have because we’ve never been in a relationship like this. We’re really close, but I don’t think that it will ever be anything romantic/sexual (I feel like I wish it could be though). My dad’s really reallyyy attractive, and I love him. I masturbate thinking about him. Reading about daughters who have this with their dad makes me wish that could be me even more (ik a lot of it is probably just fantasy posts and not real realationships like this, but there are probably some that are actually real on here ofc). So if you actually have this with your dad, you’re lucky because I wish that I could too.