First macro dose

I don’t often have a block of free time alone so when I had the opportunity this weekend I took it. I’ve only taken micro doses before and wasn’t quite sure if it was having any affect. Began to think I had defective mushrooms. I did feel some change but could not pinpoint it to the shrooms, placebo, or just me changing. In any case I went with 1.66g of penis envy ground up and put into a tea with strawberries. Took about 30 minutes before I felt anything but I wasn’t feeling well that day and thought oh I’m getting sick and not the mushrooms. Started to think geez these are bogus when it started kicking in. I’ve read enough about setting so I had some relaxing music on (thanks to the person who wrote about Spotify music for plants station) any way I started to see my house plant sort of just slight waver then the emotions kicked in. First I had intense grief over losing both my parents over the last two years. It was a very difficult period where I had to oversee everything. I grieved hard for my mom. It was intense and then for dad. But it was healing and not just sorrow. I feel I finally processed some of what happened. Then I swung into this euphoria about my family. Then fell into a mini life review. Then back to grief. It was just as intense. But then back to euphoria which was equally intense. The music choice is important glad you all mention that often. Finally I came back down and then I thought will this change my mental attitude? I’ve been depressed, flat emotionally, and anxious after my parents passed. Today, the next day I feel lighter but not sure if the effects will last.

Does anyone have experience with lasting change at a light dose or do you need a bigger does to effect a long term change ?