I feel like my friends don’t love me

Unfortunately social media isn’t a place where I share my problems, me and my brother aren’t also in good terms because we’ve been getting into fights most of the time. But this is not my case, Sometimes if I ever find new friends to make, I feel like they hate me and think I have letted them down, even half of my adhd medicine makes me feel like I’m an annoying piece of shit

What can I do to improvise and be less annoying? :/