I feel alone

Sometimes I wonder what's the point... I usually try to do the right thing and treat people with kindness and respect... and that's who I am, so I wouldn't bitch about that, it's my choice... it's just I have my quirky tendencies but it's just me... I decided to move 2000 miles away, and I still feel like I did before moving, just with less anger. I do t like anger... I just hate how I try to do the "right" thing and folks can turn over anything I say to make me feel guilty... I stopped trying to make friends and prefer axquaitances... less paranoia that way... I'm just tired of surviving day by day rather than have a "normal" life, where I just don't feel judged or paranoid... but it is what it is