Did a Whoopsie, now i have a question

So the other day i decided to try it out and after the first small dose kicked in i got the funny idea that today was the day i was gonna nut up and kill myself and took the rest of what i had, which was 1.8 grams total. I know, i know, hilariously bad idea. Why i thought for even a second this was the play i have no clue. Funnily enough, i actually dont remember any of the trip outside of the very start, and at the end when my memory kicked back in just in time for me to be able to remember a shadow ghost dude crouching behind my toilet and looking at me. Well now my right pupil is bigger than the left and im positive for all the symptoms of peripheral neuropathy but like its only been a couple days, so i should be fine, right? Right????????