Usmle vs neet pg

I’m so done, I can’t decide between giving usmle or not. I love being in India, but the aspect of no work life balance and lesser pay and all the negative talk makes me want to give usmle. I’m in my internship right now I have an amazing partner with whom I see my future, I don’t wanna break it off and try usmle since that is an uncertain path as well. So if give usmle and don’t get matched, I love my potential loml and 2 years down the line But personally no wlb and lesser pay makes me feel so anxious. I don’t like the work culture in India but I don’t wanna risk everything for usmle. Honestly I don’t know if giving up everything and going there will even make me happy after getting matched now Feels like a lose lose situation How did you guys decide what to do I know it sounds childish but it feels like a choice where I lose no matter what