Why do I constantly sexualize myself?

This is a bit of a doozy, fair warning this may broach on some uncomfortable topics.

I've been dealing with this troubling thought for over a year now, and it's really tearing me up ever since I realized I've been doing it.

It started off small at first, when I would be in my car a guy would pass and I would purposefully cross my arms to make "the girls" or wtvr seem more prominent, things like that.

But then when talking to a friend about some adult things, I suddenly remembered when I went on omegle abt 2 years back and.. showed a bunch of older male strangers some NSFW things.

Then I got a boyfriend, and he was extremely hypersexual- but I never really felt too bothered by it. It felt good to me to be desired in that way, even if I got a but scared when he started asking for voice calls, and audios.

Anyways- he broke up with me, yadda yadda- but the breakup made me realize how much I genuinely seem to objectify myself. Even when I was way younger I would imagine scenarios of men breaking into my house and hurting me, but not in a "hot sexy bdsm roleplay" way but like, creepy ex-con.

Anyways idfk what's wrong with me so,, someone psycho-analyze this or smth idk 😭✋️