I am furious i wasted this much time

Ive spent the last 6yrs raving about joe and being a devout follower of his work even tho it never really worked for me. Spending 3 months an hr a day got minimal results. I have severe adhd so it took me so long to do the work even tho i tried so hard and it was my only lifeline that i couldnt even practice.

This pushed so much deeper into survival as the thing i deeply wanted to do, o couldnt. Thru many brain games and messing with my mind just to get an hour done took such a herculean effort. Fast forward to this year.

I went to my grandmas house for a month far away from everyone in daily life. No distractions. I managed to get 5hrs a day of meditation for 4weeks. I healed body dysmkrphia symptoms to 80%. However im still a miserable person and nothing changed at its core.

It came back a month later, then i did 6hrs meds everyday for a week and went away again. I feel so calm after long hours

So until last week, i saw a vid about EFT. Ive heard about it before but it sounded dumb and ridiculous. Theu further research, i found out about dysregulated nervous system. Which really has been causing so much pain and emotional suffering. Ive been doing 45mins a day and from day one i got so much results and everyday since ive been feeling so calm in ways i havent in over a decade.

Joe dispenzas meds didnt even really do that unless i did 4hrs of meds back to back, maybe then ill feel super calm. But an hour or two didnt cut it. EFT finally did.

What im saying is, yes his work works it helped me, but i was so blinded by joe dispenza being the only source to heal that ive disregarded every other modality and it was only me who suffered the consequences. He doesnt really say much besides what hes rehearsed from every single podcast and its very misleading and even dangerous because he doesnt get to the nitty gritty.

I can understand this is my fault but also this sh** is fkn hard. Meditating for hours didnt bring results. Thru experience when i did back to back and felt so calm that during my day i wasnt phased by anything and did it again for 6days thats when i healed bdd, but when my body wasnt in the calm mode it prolonged my healing.

What im saying is, i think you need to focus on regulating your nervous system first which is WAYYY easier than meditating for an hour. And once you feel safe in your body do the meditations and the healing will be 1000x quicker because the body is out of fight or flight. I really think thats the key. But when we meditate and end it and our body is still not regulated its going to be sooo hard to control your thoughts and feelings. SERIOUSLY.

ive done EVERYTHING to heal, but seriously this silly tapping has done so much for me in 5 days than meditating ever has. So my plan is to regulate my nervous system then apply joe’s work. I know thats my path and hopefully you can learn from this as well.

Listen, im not here to be a hater, but lets be real, if you’ve been doing this work for years and years and nothing has changed theres probably a good reason why. I hope this helps someone because ive been feeling so phenomenal the past few days without meditating. Look up nervous system regulation on tiktok and watch peoples testimonials. They healed without even meditating.

Thank you