I feel absolutely dumb coming into this and nervous about asking for help. But I’m desperate for direction on what can help me relax. I’m female 33, diagnosed ADHD- and possibly on the autism spectrum. I cannot get my brain to shut down at night and I’m exhausted day to day if I cannot rest my brain. 

I’m trying to ease my way into a THC/ Cannabis solution to help find something that helps me relax.
However anything that’s online isn’t strong enough. For an example I have these drops from All About Hemp- and the highest I can get is 550mg. I have to take 6 dropped fulls to feel anything- but… when I finally feel it- it’s like I feel paranoid instead of relaxed. I see “shadows” in my peripheral that aren’t there. And it’s the opposite of what I’m trying to achieve.

I’ve never smoked or vaped, I don’t really know anyone I trust who does. This isn’t about just casual high for me- I’m looking for a strain that helps me just settle and relax in the evenings. Because right now the only thing that turns my brain off is a glass of wine but I don’t want to do that long term. I also don’t want to be taking weed or thc and having peripheral shadows because I cannot handle that kind of “high” experience. 

Does anyone have any suggestions on where I can start, strains I can focus on that would help with the relaxing part and less of maybe the high part? I don’t know if that’s possible but I wanted to ask in case it is. 

I’ll attach a photo of the thc drops I have now. 

I need guidance- new to cannabis and THC