I'm just tired of this...

I almost have a job(I'm literally just waiting to set my employee account up), I have no one to help me understand the feelings I have when little(I suffer from gender dysphoria when regressed), I barely have any friends, I can't get on dating platforms yet(I'm like 4 or 5 months from being 18), I have 0 little friends, I can't enjoy being little(My mom's a prick who can't retain anything I tell her), 90% of jobs are going to turn me down in life because I'm autistic, have ADHD and regress even though any of those 3 have a major effect on me(the only major problem is I regress because I either get overstimulated or overwhelmed in general), I have no money meaning I can't buy much of anything I want(Gear, toys, games), I thought the bullying was done once I left the public school system in the dust(but nope it somehow followed me here, u know who u are), I have no one to take care of me when adulting gets to hard, life has been nothing but hell for me, and I probably deserve a good cry but that'll just leave me more broken and overwhelmed, it just seems like no matter what I do it isn't enough for the universe to leave me alone. What does it take to not be called a freak for being who I am? Society is so fucked up it isn't funny, will there ever be a day where someone like me can be who they are? It gets so tiring hearing the same things over and over again. I'm tired of being the joke. It just never gets better. I'll be back once I have a major update about something. Luv y'all, gn.