Did a whoosie, now I have a question again but on my alt this time

Ok, gonna be quicker this time. Tried it out for the first time a few days back. Started with a reasonable dose. After that kicked in, I decided today was the day i was gonna kill myself. I know, I know, terrible idea. Why I thought this was the play for even a second is beyond me. Anywho, ended up taking 1.8 and while I'm not dead my right pupil is bigger than the left and I'm positive for all the main symptoms of peripheral neuropathy. But its only been a few days so i should be fine, right? Lmao. Right? Ahaha