I found a job I really wanted for the first time and I didn't get it

I'm just really sad right now, I just got the email saying they rejected me.

This should be everyday occurrence, I've been rejected a lot but this one absolutely crushed me. It's just such a bad day today and to top it off I got that email.

I never wanted a job as much as this one, like it's the first one that absolutely clicked with me after so many random jobs that apply. The interview went well for me but I suppose not for them.

I feel embarrassed for having such an expectation when I should know better. I don't feel like applying to the normal random jobs anymore since I really want another one like that.

For context I changed my career 2 years ago but I've been dying to go back to my previous one, which is the one I got rejected just now, and I guess that's a red flag.