What’s the sweet spot?

Day 95 and I’m at a weird point. In order to win the bet I need to reach alcoholism and quit by end of year. Now I’m wondering if that’s possible.

If it’s not possible because I don’t qualify within the year, this is a wasted. Money wise. But without the incentive or $40k to quit, I definitely don’t want to at this point. It’s not all good, obviously, but I’m having a good time. Most of my focus is on reducing the effects so I can do this freely. If it weren’t for the negative effects I’d be drunk always forever.

So if I can’t win the bet, do I quit? Not sure. If I have to get wayyyyy more addicted and drink more and push harder etc I. Order to qualify for the bet, is it worth it? If what I’m doing isn’t alcoholism, I have mixed feelings.

1 - I maybe can’t handle real alcoholism 2 - okay sweet this isn’t alcoholism so I’m all good continuing to do this forever.

Just rambling. But that’s where I’m at today. Only real issue is how to get more cash if I don’t get it via this bet.