Horny

Just as the title says. I'm super horny and it's times like this where I hate that I don't live alone. I need to get this out of my system. I just want to be able to use my toys on/in my body and use my holes and I can't do that when I'm not alone, at least bit even close to the extent that I want to.

I also miss having someone to play with or talk about my desires with. I know I could find a random guy online - I've somehow managed to find a couple of good ones in the past, but ultimately I don't trust anyone anymore; and so I will just have to continue to work on saving money until I can move out on my own and can entertain myself however and whenever I want.

My pussy aches to be filled and I feel bad that she'll only ever know silicone cocks because I don't know how I'll ever meet a guy I like and who equally likes me back. Even if I were to find the right guy, I don't actually know what I'm doing physically, and I also don't know how to be comfortable having a guy see my body in person and up close and personal. My body isn't pretty and the curves I have are flabby, not solid and beautiful. I have hair that grows in places most women don't and that makes me self conscious. I have stretch marks almost everywhere except for my lower arms and legs and my upper back and even though I'm pretty neutral feeling about them most days, they aren't pretty and I don't have smooth skin.

Negativity aside, I'm still horny and I almost always am and its quite annoying.