He was the one…

Me and Cody started off as this perfect couple. I was in a room full of nurses and he lit up the room by offering to help me and asking me if I could follow him to the cafeteria for a refreshment. I obliged. A week went by and I continued to watch him. The first 2 days I hid in my room but I never forgot him. He had this energy about him that I couldn’t move past. Later that week, we spent the entire day together. I knew I fell in love with him when we were by the water and he was making duck calls. On the walk back home, me and him started to talk a lot. Speaking of many life experiences we had been through. We spent hours talking about our interests. He taught me so many things about history that I didn’t even know about. That was his passion. When I saw that passion, I was fully convinced that I was in love with him. He spoke about his previous relationship. It was obvious that it was completely ruined by her unwillingness to be faithful to this loving and kind human being that is Cody. I remember sitting outside and telling him I had feelings for him. He had a hard time saying it out loud. Because of that, I thought I was about to be shut down lol. Luckily, I wasn’t. He felt the same. It was the first time in a year or so that I let someone in. I knew he was worth it. From that moment on… from rehab, PHP, RCOO, and me straying from the program… I knew I needed to figure something out. I had the love of my life but we started having issues with our relationship. Basically from January 2025-now we have been on this up and down battle. He recently went to a new program and fell in love with someone else. Here’s the thing… I can’t hate him. No matter how hard I try. He started this friendship with this girl in April and the moment that happened, I had these feelings of discomfort. I ended up being right about it all. I accused him of stringing me along until he could figure out what his feelings were for her. I found out quickly that she said she always tried to be “just friends” with guys and ends up falling in love with them. So, even though she knew that me and Cody had plans to be back together, she knew from the get-go that she would fall for him. I don’t trust her. I’ve loved Cody and I’ve been with him through it all. Am I perfect? Absolutely not. But I will stay by his side no matter what. When things don’t work out with this new girl, I will be here for him. I truly love him with everything in my heart and being. I will never give up. Cody is worth it. And I will love him for the rest of my life. I need help moving on 😢