[l] First time posting here going to see how it goes.

This might get deleted later if I am to ashamed of myself to keep it up. Let me get into it.

So I am 29 years old and I have never had a job, I had a girlfriend once when I was about 19 that destroyed any sense of confidence I had in myself. Very bad experience. That's just a little background on my life, but what I am here to talk about it this: As a person diagnosed with OCD, Social Anxiety, Agoraphobia I have a very very had time leaving the house. Lately when something comes up where I am required to leave I just wont do it. Getting out to the yard is about as far as I can leave my house before I panic. Now my parents and family know this about me, but they still give me a lot of flak for never doing anything.

It's gotten to the point where I have researched how I could break my own leg just for a few months of people actually understanding. I don't think I can go through with it. I did this once in the past and the pain was unreal.