I got branded by a dom and I kinda liked it

TW: SH

I struggle with a really destructive habit of exposing my own nudes, doing degrading painful stuff for men online (and IRL), and getting wilder and wilder with kinks. It's an addiction that I always spiral into whenever I get swells of depression or self-hate. Anyway, for the last couple of months, it's been pretty intense. Been doing a lot of really degrading kinky stuff. One guy I talk to on Snapchat has known and used me for a long time. He casually said a few times that he wants me to carve his first name initial "M" on my body, specifically my chest, with a blade. I always laughed it off because it felt too extreme for me. But one day I was in the washroom, and I had this tiny pair of scissors used to trim facial hair, with really sharp tips. And I just did it.

I carved an M on my chest above my left nipple. It didn't bleed or anything, not that deep, but it was there. So I took a picture and showed it to him.

And he got so insanely turned on that he kept ordering me to "go over it again" because it looked too faint. So I did. And he kept telling me to re-carve it even though it was throbbing, literally said he won't stop making me do it until I bleed.

It didn't go that far, but it went far enough. And now I think the M is permanently on my chest. I literally got branded. And the funniest part is - he doesn't even reply to me anymore lol. I think he just got bored and moved on.

Anyway, you can DM me to see the M if you think I'm lying haha