How to distract myself?

I feel like randomly I will burst into episodes. I’ll be fine all day and then randomly I have a crazy mood swing. I’ve attempted multiple times and when I switch moods I feel like maybe it did work after all? I have so much pent up energy and need to do something impulsive. I can’t control any of it. So I go to cutting to see myself bleed. It helps me feel less like I died and gives me that impulsive. Sometimes it doesn’t always help my impulsive which have lead to attempts. I’m sorry that’s a lot too poor out to the entire internet. I’m scared my digital footprint is gonna a lot of Reddit questions. Sorry not the point though, I was wondering if anyone had suggestions? Sadly a lot of the ones most commonly suggested haven’t worked for me. I feel like I’m losing my mind a bit. Thank you so much for your time, I’m sorry.