T makes me feel alone

Ok, idk if this I’m gonna say somebody else can related to but rn I’m going through a hard process my T is loud and I have sensitivity to loud noises so I don’t go out too much and I stay most of the time at home just watching movies or playing video games (I’m not working) the point is every time I remember I have T and I hear it I feel so alone, I feel nobody else around me is suffering from this condition but me (i don’t know nobody around me with T) and I just miss so much my old version of me not having T right back in December 2024. I feel hopeless and I feel sometimes like I just wanna cry and cry, I wonder all the time why this happened to me, and the depression and loneliness I feel is something else. I have loved coffee my entire life, now I don’t drink coffee because it spikes my T, before this condition one of my favorite plans to do was going to a coffee shop and talk to my friends and relax enjoying a good cup of coffee, I miss my old version where I didn’t have to worry about how loud the place I hang out was, and the list can go on… I guess what upset me the most was the way I got T, I used eardrops ciprodex because a not confirmed infection and the Doctor I went to see in ER told me to use the eardrops he said it would prevent an infection just in case, he said it shouldn’t caused me T, I asked him like Twice and he said I was good to go, now I find myself here feeling miserable, if I wouldn’t have put those eardrops in my ears 👂 I would be pretty much the same happy and positive girl I always was, now there is not much left to me about happiness and positivity. Sorry for venting like this I just really feel alone. The feeling of guilt is also everyday in my mind for going to ER, I had itchy ears and I went the same day just to make sure everything was fine, I should have waited and not going to Er so probably I would not have this T and sensitivity. For all T sufferers, you are strong and tough people.

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