Need advice please

Hello all,

I met, who I think is my twin flame, ten years ago. It was completely random and unexpected. I walked into an art show, no intentions of going not even sure why I was there, and it happened to be his. I’ll never forget how we looked at each other. It’s like time stood still. And then I walked out, thinking I had a strong pull to go back in but I couldn’t.

We ended up finding each other and contacting shortly after meeting. At the time I was with my soon to be husband, finally in a relationship that was calm and safe. But I couldn’t get this man out of my head. He chased me for about a year, trying to be with me. But I had a loyalty to my soon to be husband. There was always a pull to be with him, but I couldn’t. Eventually I got married, my TF ended up in a serious relationship and we drifted apart. Always popping in and out of each others lives.

About a year ago, my TF and I got back into contact in which he confessed that he felt a spark with me he’s never had, and he tried so hard to be with me but eventually had to let me go. We always seem to have the wrong timing. I felt the same way the first time I saw him, but i didn’t realize it until recently..The connection never has faded with us, and it’s heart wrenching. We will always say things like, maybe one day we will get a chance. But it feels like that might never come. When I think of him, I feel like we could be something spectacular, but again the timing. I feel like in some odd way we were together in some past life.. it’s like a string that’s connected to him.

I cannot stop thinking about the what ifs, and about him. It’s so difficult. It feels like one min he’s chasing and I’m running now im chasing and he’s running. I dream about him a lot, and it’s really distracting for me. Why do I feel this way when I have a husband who is so secure and good? I’m at such a crossroads any advice would be so helpful

Thank you all in advance