I feel sad about my situation any advice?

I am sad

I have used finasteride for years with good results

I get compliments on my hair

The problem is inhave tried different dosages and even as low as 0.1mg topically a day (0.01%)

What I'm currently on

And honestly no matter what I do I seem to get sides

I just accept them but the truth is as soon as I'm off it within a wwwk or two I feel a lot different

Just feel naturally more dominat, higher libido , more drive more confident , sex feels better etc

I just feel sad I know people will say its placebo but it happens every time

I feel sad because I'd look horrible bald I'm already very short and hideous

And my hair has always been something I've loved styling and being proud of

I don't know what to do