sometimes i can't even look at myself.

i just keep remembering what happened. i keep remembering how i felt and how the others reacted. i want to know what it was. looking it up doesn't tell me if it was sexual harassment or not. everyone i ask says it wasn't. did nothing even happen? am i overreacting? he was a year younger than me. maybe it's ok and im just sensitive. maybe none of it matters. maybe it doesn't matter that he squeezed my thigh and grabbed my breast. maybe it doesn't matter because it doesn't matter to anyone else. maybe it isn't important. maybe it was nothing. maybe it just doesn't fucking matter.