All hope is crushed

Well I guess it’s really over over. I messaged you today after having blocked you for months. What was I thinking? I cried practically everyday yearning for you. And today I unblocked and messaged you. I told you I was sorry for blocking you and that I missed you. Idk what I was thinking. Of course you wouldn’t just accept me back into your arms. Those times have loNg gone now huh? I’m crying as I write this. It’s so easy for you to brutally reject me now that we are each behind a screen miles away from each other. My heart aches and hurts so much. This will be the biggest regret of my life. I wish you knew how you saved me from leaving this world. You brought me love light and happiness. Your last words to me were that you only wish me to be happy. But my happiness was with you. Times with you were honestly the best times of my life. My life has been sad and colorless and empty. I love you so much K. I’ll never forget you. But I already faded away from your mind. You’ve buried me deep. I love you I love you I love you. I wish I could just fall asleep forever. At least I still get to see and be with you in my dreams 🥺💔💔🖤🥀