I need someone to talk to…

It gets harder for me each day. I’m in survival mode. I eat, sleep, watch random videos. I stopped watching series, reading a book, journaling for some reason. I don’t have energy to do things. I get easily irritated and mad even with small stuff. the anxiety always hits in the morning that’s the hardest part. There are times I couldn’t sleep properly and my bad habits in eating starting again. I either eat a lot or eat barely. I’m so distracted with my thoughts. I’m stucked with what happened in the past and I still wonder why did he jump from 2 different girls after bu and a month after. My thoughts will be the end of me. It’s been two months and I’m still stucked and couldn’t figure things out. I lost some friends too. I feel like my life isn’t worth it. Like I don’t have anything to look forward to. Depression is eating me alive. When will this end?