I don’t even know what I’m asking but I need advice 😭

I’m 34M my wife is 43F, she has 2 kids from a previous marriage 17 year old F and 14 year old M. We’ve been together 9 years. This is my first marriage.

My whole life I’ve been abandoned..my mother and my stepfather chose each other and that’s just how it was, I felt like an after thought, til this day I have no contact with them.

My biological father had my step mom they had three of their own children and made their own life and I once again was not in the picture. I again til this day have no contact with them.

I also have no siblings.

My entire life I’ve been infatuated with romance, I am a hopeless romantic, a lover of love, and have always craved to be loved the way I am capable of loving. When I first met my wife I knew she was the one. Her smile is pure serotonin to me. I love spoiling her. We’ve built an incredible life together and started from the absolute bottom together. I learned to be a parent, I graduated, I built my career, I worked on my mental health and grew into the man that I am with this woman by my side. I put her above all else.

Over the last few years our daughter has become increasingly problematic and my wife has developed a codependent relationship with her. Catering to her every need despite the disrespect, spoiling her rotten, enabling the kid to disrespect me in my own home and not holding her accountable.

I once again feel invisible. Another after thought. I’m chasing her and she’s chasing my daughter. I brutal fucking game of cat and mouse. I’ve found myself lately sinking into this deep dark hole of loneliness that actually physically hurts. I keep asking myself what is wrong with me that I can’t be the priority in someone’s life, why and how have I placed myself in a situation that I hated so much and caused me so much trauma when I was younger?! I am absolutely head over heels for this woman but she is emotionally unable to love me the way I yearn for and that’s been proven time and time again. I feel like nothing matters, I’m so depressed my senses feel numb. I feel like a 6 year old again. Go ahead and judge me but I’ve been rewatching rom coms wondering what it’s like to be that important to someone. To have someone be that in love with you? To have someone crave your embrace, a simple touch ignites fire to your senses, conversations filled with laughter and leaving you longing for more….having someone love you in a way that makes them write love letters that could fill a book. Be someone’s everything?

Feel free to tell me I’m fucking stupid, or that fairy tales aren’t real, or yearning for that kind of love isn’t realistic….idk maybe I’m just venting because right now I feel everything and nothing at all.