Advice from a woman’s perspective, please.

Just kinda feeling defeated. I love the normal stuff like latex, spandex, gags, bondages, etc… more on the submissive and receiving side.

But here is where the problem, diapers… it’s like I can’t shake it/don’t want to shake it. Sure, it started because of a hyper active bladder but I enjoy them now and it apparently rather repulsive to women. Which kinda sucks. And it’s not like I’m unattractive, I work out, disabled vet, and a first responder that is rather successful.

So I need advice, what do I do? Am I just SOL and stuck living single?