Need help with food

I'm trying not to get stuck in an afterpay loop, I had to use it again last month to eat and I can't maintain that borrow and scramble cycle at all.

I'm a few days from my monthly check, struggle with ARFID, and out of food until the bank releases my check on the 3rd or whatever arbitrary day they decide, and trying not to use a predatory lender again or freak the entire f out

My 20$ borrow in r/borrow was repaid early on the 3rd, the person just never made a paid post for me so now I don't think I can ask there again and should have come here first but was trying hard while starving 😭