My boyfriend 20M is planning on proposing to me, 18F. I'm kind of terrified.

I (18F) and my boyfriend (20M) have been dating for almost three years. I've helped him a lot through his personal and academic struggles. Like passing the reading benchmark, comforted him when he lost in fútbol, and practicing English in general. He's helped me with my Spanish.

I've seen him turn from a guy who had no plan in life to a man in the army. I went to his milestones, met his family, met his friends, the works.

I've heard that he's planning on proposing this Sunday.

The topic of marriage has been kind of been heavy for me because my mother married young and its a plethora of trauma. So i'm scared to fall into the same pattern.

I want to know if its time to fully dive in. I've been having some doubts and fears.

How can i have this conversation with him?