My friend needs help i love them and want to help but idk how

She has said this. I feel like a useless girl, a burden I feel in the issue in the mistake porn or even maybe even a fuckin failure. I hanesth don't know even why i was born dongved. People blame everyth on of that even me which makes me think all of more. People call me mean names.. Sayin "She's retorted." She's weird" "She did it" and Sturr like that. It leads me to Cutting my wrist open and hurting myself on purpose II miss grandma so badly, Just thinking about Ther maites me cry. I always see pictures of her and myself when I was little. I know She's in a better place now bet she was my best Friend. She'd always make me smile. She would would give me everything even if She had nothing. She would make sure I ate. I don't like the flu Shot. She got it and wasn't strong enough to fight it. I Still remember the the day she died too. She was laying in her bed at the nursing home. blowing bubbles bubbles in her Sada If seen her right now, She would say holy Shit, She got big!" but unfortunenly I can't. I I'also see when me and Hayden were little and best friends. now he's 18 and we barely talk. I'm alway's Cert. lout, it malles me feel unwanted. I want but I Can't do that to people. I honestly it to die dont Know what to do any more. I'm not accepted Ever! I feel like i'm the worst Friend 9f daughter, I get fold to "Kons Sister. Person and family member. Iget more than ""y." Idk what to belive. I wanna ga home schooled so badly but my parents won't let me 11 also remember in 5th grade. Someone told my r? shes Friend's "why do you hang out with her? Weird. "Bro, I don't even Even fucking fucking talk, ppl are so mean. I get called bigry, and everything. One time my own Mother said that I look 1, Ke Gary hompling When I smile and hot's ugly asp I feel like Ingr I cut to distract myself and I I desave pain after all, somebody in my school even told me "you know nobody likes you right?" I do know. I'm unaccepted the only reason im

here is be of my friends & family. People Call me an object only beause I'm a women. Life is so stupid Fr, I Can't reall do much about it either that's what really Suck's too. I barely even smile, if I do it's most likely fake! It's Complicated, I try but still get called lazy. I hate school so much. I'm always getting Judged."

Its not sure but "I have to go to get a good Job." II try my hardest, there is way more but ldk this is gonna be found. I tried fried to kims berore didn't work. Idk any more.. I'm done with but it didn't life. I try isolating myself and just holding it all in, but sometimes I Jst Colapse i hate my life. I love her soo much and want to help but don't know how