Trying to understand my condition

Hey, just trying to get to the root of this. I’ve been dumbing it down with alcohol and drugs for two decades, but now I’m just… I’m done with that. I want to live the rest of my life on my own terms.

I guess I had OCD as a child. I dusted my shelves and had every toy PERFECTLY placed. Didn’t seem weird to me at the time. Other kids were just sloppy.
Stupid things like my ex gf and her continuous laundry… always in a state of doing laundry. Made me crazy. I just did the laundry. Has to be folded. Goddammit.

Honestly, any good advice would be warranted here. I’d just like to move forward. And thank you.