24F- Looking for a specific kind of BDSM

Looking for a CNC scene, I’ve described the gist of what I’m interested in below so hopefully we can both be one the same page before messaging!

To start with the basics:

About me: 24F, 120lbs, 5’4, very inexperienced when it comes to sex. Outside of this kink, I don’t enjoy being objectified, degraded, or anything of a similar nature.

Limits: Bathroom stuff, blood, choking (that fully cuts off breathing), not wearing a condom, any sort of photos

About you: In the portland area, can host, looking for something in real life, preferably 5’9 or above, HWP, looking for a one night thing, preferably between 25-40. Into this in the bedroom only & a feminist in your day to day life.

What I’m looking for:

I envision this as a date gone wrong scene that ends in brutal/ forceful sex. We meet up at a bar, and then go back to your place. It could be because the the bar is closing or because my phone is dying and you happen to be close by with a charger.

When we’re back at your place you point me to your couch as you grab me a water and turn on the tv, sitting down next to me. You place a hand on my knee (not high enough for me to say anything) and we continue to watch tv or talk for a few minutes. You then move your hand higher, toying with the seam of my skirt.

It’s still not high enough for me to say anything but I do start to tense up. After a few minutes you move your hand higher, thumb brushing against my panties.

“Hey, sorry. I’m not ready for this” I say, crossing my legs to shrug your hands off.

“No worries.” You respond, removing your hand.

But it doesn’t stay gone. A few minutes later, your hand is back, now starting to press underneath my underwear.

I stand up, now, very tense. “I think I’m going to head out.”

But you push on one thigh, forcing me back to the couch, crawling on top of me.

“No you’re not— what did you think was going to happen when you agreed to come over.”

From here I’d love this to divulge into something on the more brutal side of things. I want there to be struggle and want you to physically force me to submit. I don’t want this to be something where I eventually give in, and would love if either bondage or significant physical force (spanking/ impact play) was used in the scene.

I want this to be something we both enjoy, so please let me know if there are any questions and message if you’re interested.

Final note: I won’t share face pics. Happy to share body pics and schedule a IRL meetup pre scene but sending face pics is something I’m comfortable with at this moment. If this is something up your alley, please send a message with a description of what you look like :)