As an ex Muslim woman, I feel like an idiot for not leaving Islam earlier than 20.

I envy people who already started questioning Islam around younger than 20. I am currently 27 and I left Islam in my early 20s. The reason why I am making this post is because my childhood and adolescence was wasted on religion. I missed out on so many things in life by blindly believing in Allah. I used to go along with my family just to please them. When I stopped praying while living with them, my family used to give me a hard time for not praying enough and that affected my mental health so much. My family used to make me believe that my invisible disabilities and mental illness will go away when I pray. I feel so stupid for giving into what they used to tell me at a younger age. I wish I had an inquisitive mind at a younger age.