My free muscle cam show for gym bros centered on healthy masculinity.

Without trying to sound conceited, I’ve always seemed to have the type of body that makes gay/bi men act strange around me.. While I wouldn’t say all this in public because I know it comes across stuck up, writing on here does allow me to just use the anonymity to be blunt and say what my experience has been like.

My dad was a handsome professional Italian bodybuilder with huge pecs and generally huge muscles. My mom is Brazilian, and honestly everyone on that side of my family has dumptrucks it seems. So I ended up just looking like an Italian dude but all my Brazilian genes went to my ass lmao. But yeah, years and years of working out too, as well as being a personal trainer now, has helped me develop a muscular body where I just seem to have a shelf on my front and back sides. I’ve done some fitness modeling on the side (and some amateur stuff like being the model for those cheap sexy Halloween costumes), and was a shirtless bartender at a gay bar for a while.

I mention this because I just honestly want to write candidly about how this ‘pretty/hot privilege’ has affected me in my gay life, without seeming like some asshole. I have a fitness insta and i do feel like i fall into a weird trap. My more thirst trappy posts get the most engagement, and it’s also how i get the most of my clients (which end up being mostly bi/gay men). So almost all my clients end up being bi/gay dudes, and there’s almost like this unspoken understanding that they might have chosen me as a trainer because they were thirsting on my pics (which I can tell from all of their likes). So in the end, looking this way is both a privilege because it provides me more engagement for my business, and more people are willing to connect with me. But at the same time, a lot of those connections don’t feel as genuine. I have some awesome friends, and I’m very close with my clients. That said, I have had my underwear stolen MULTIPLE times (some I can’t prove who, but three times I have found out who it was who stole them). My ass gets groped multiple times at clubs. Etc.

Even with all this, I do have an admiration/muscle worship kink. I obviously can't just say all that publicly due to my job though and because I’m not interested in having a public OF. The anonymity here helps and allows me to just be blunt about my experiences and just be blunt about the fact that I know my clients stare at my ass and pecs through the gym mirrors, and that I’m very aware they likely jerk off to me. I found that I wanted to provide a space where I can indulge in my praise kink that was separate from my work life and was anonymous, where I could just have a safe place to just be me, be horny, and provide a way for guys to get off to my muscles for free. No judgment, in a place where I know guys aren’t creepy and can be trusted. Where we can develop a friendship and bond where masculinity/masturbation are honored and healthy. I also don’t want anything to affect my professional life, so it’s totally separate from that.

Basically, I vet guys on here who seem chill and normal and gym going, and i provide a space where i can anonymously provide them a good jacking experience, but I also get my muscle worship/praise kink fixso i can do this separately from my personal trainer/life coach stuff.

I’m also a life coach, and I talk to a lot of men about healthy masculinity and sexuality. This is separate from my professional life, as I said, but its fun to also have a place where we can celebrate horny masculine energy through a healthy outlet for sexuality and masculinity. Nothing wrong with jacking off or finding guys/muscles hot, right? In my mind, if guys in my life are jacking off to me and my ass and muscles after they hang out with me, then I am honored that my body makes their dicks feel good while they are polishing it back at home. Of course, my clients know nothing about the show I offer. I’m not a sex worker (nothing wrong with that though).

It’s fun just being open about that on here. I’m not doing anything sexual with guys from work obviously due to professional boundaries. I don't tell them about my cam shows. But on here, separate from all that, I do like to just talk about life, gym, goals outside of the work sense too. Help men feel more comfortable with their own masculinity, with their own appreciation for muscle, to make them know its okay to jack off and feel good admiring some muscle and ass. To have buddies who also get that masculine comradery. A healthy sexuality circle of men, and I’m happy to be the inspiration. As well as just talk about life, what healthy masculinity means, what healthy masturbation means, and also happy to provide some gym motivation and advice.

At the end of every show I choose one guy to have a one on one with. And I’ll let them be horny as hell and ask for whatever to flex, but also check in on their fitness goals with them.