every fucking thing I ever fucking say is wrong and I am so fucking goddamn tired of it.

If I think it's a fact, I misremembered. If I looked it up, I missed a major fucking goddamn detail that completely invalidates every fucking thing I said.

it's not even fact either. If I share an opinion, I will get shit on for it. No exception. If I create something, people will shit on it. No fucking exception. If I just need to vent, I will be shit on for it. No fucking goddamn exception.

The where doesn't matter, the why doesn't matter, the who doesn't matter. It can be a friend, a family member, or an anonymous online community. It doesnt fucking matter. I am so fucking sick of everything wrong with my stupid fucking goddamn retard brain. If I wasn't worried about the fact that I'd have to live with it, I'd gouge my own eyes out with a red hot fucking knife.

I literally tried heating up a knife on the stove and scarring myself with it a few minutes ago but chickened out. Want to guess what fucking happened the minute I calmed down and tried to relax? I bit my tongue by mistake and tore off a chunk of skin

I don't deserve fingers, I don't deserve a mouth, and I'm starting to wonder if one of the many things I've been wrong about is that my family needs me, and that I could have happily killed myself 15 years ago if I wasn't a fucking retard.

NOTE: I actually have been told my a credible professional that I qualify as a mental fucking retard, so fuck you I can say whatever the fuck I want about myself