Lost hopeless & broken. *dark

As I walk thru the valley with my demons got this void in my soul I ain’t the same as I use to be, why I push em to the side when she play Bonnie to my Clyde I feel like they all using me, why I got these drugs by my side and this liquor to confide all this pain I hold inside and I take It self abusingly,

I got 99 problems internally it’s killing me, I miss all the lost ones that aren’t here with me,

I tried to run from my demons but they keep chasing and embracing me, this emotions that I’m feeling can’t compare it to no simile or metaphor, my inter thoughts is like a mental war,

depression hardened heart my shit is barely beating anymore, lethargic all the time cuz I’m barely eating anymore, lungs turn to dust cuz smoke is all I’m breathing anymore,

all the drugs and liquor hurting me I know it but it’s helping, always cracking jokes but deep inside I’m prolly yelping,

self loathing torment I don’t wana talk about it, this pill will kill me but I think I’m lost without it, i hope to cope without this dope I’ll try tomorrow but I doubt it

Got me feeling like my uncle hella lost and in denial, aint no body I can tell or a number I can dial,

quelling my pain with these pills eating vial after vial. that’s a step in my shoes you won’t make it to a mile,

this ain’t living it’s a step below SURVIVAL , squeeze the trigger till it click to make sure im dead upon ARRIVAL!