I need to get out

there's no way, no no. No this is not me. I don't know who this is, I just know that he's not me. I'm a girl, not this disgusting thing I have control over. No, I need to get out I need to just get out of this hell, I'm already in hell I just want to leave what did I even do. I'm i took a drug in the real world which makes me live a false life here and it feels real but it isn't. The touch in my hands feel weird, like I'm seeing it from afar I just want to wake up in my real bed, in my real body. Not here