Emotionally unavailable women

Throw away account and might delete post.

I 26M have been talking to a Girl 27F for a few weeks online and our “relationship” is a bit of mess. Need some advice on what I could possibly do.

First of all we aren’t together, it’s 100% at the moment fwb but I have genuine feelings for her, I think she’s incredibly kind, funny, smart, and beautiful. Unfortunately she isn’t ready for a relationship and I’ve told her how I feel multiple times.

She recently broke up with an ex of several years a few months ago and she still has feelings for him(mostly his family) and doesn’t want to start dating other people yet. She’s told me indirectly that she’d start looking to date in a few months(maybe) but if her ex wanted to, she’d get back with him before that.

We’ve been sexting, phone sex, face timing, and calling each other almost every day, and we talk on the phone for hours at a time about anything, I’ve asked her how she feels about me and she hasn’t given me an actual response, just idks, not ready’s etc.

She does everything she can to get me to not like her and it doesn’t change how I feel, at the same time she plays around with the idea of one of us driving over to meet each other but she ultimately just says she’s joking, but that if we did she couldn’t help herself if we met.

For more context we’re both talking to other people, me IRL and her with other online guys but I feel our connection is way more deeper besides this one other guy she’s talking to(lives way too far from her and is obviously only interested sexually in her).

She’s also told me she feels like if she met the “one” she’d drop everything to get with them and that isn’t me but has also said she doesn’t really know what that means.

She’s planning on a getaway vacation for clarity and peace and she’s hoping it’ll help her realize what she wants.

Besides waiting for her what should I do? Is this even a smart move to be this emotionally invested in someone who isn’t ready? My mind is telling me no, to ditch her, but my heart says otherwise, I’ve never felt this way with a woman, can’t say it’s love but the feeling is so strange.

Any help or advice will do.