I can't sleep...

I left Home Depot a month ago to become a store manager at Lowe's. Tomorrow is my first day out of training. Not that there was much training, but the manager I am replacing retired today, so the store is officially mine now. And I plan on firing the entire management team and one supervisor. The supervisor is being terminated tomorrow. I won't get into the reasons why he is being terminated, but I will say that it's long overdue, as is getting rid of the entire management team. And I hate it. It's actually really easy. Bring him into my office, say we're letting him go, hand him his money, and walk him out. I've done it many times. And you know what? It sucks. Every. Fucking. Time. Deserved or not, this is a major impact in someone's life. This could literally destroy his life. And I have to be the one to do it. And I hope, I pray, I fucking wish with every fiber of my being that it never gets easy. I hope it tears me up inside every single time. I hope I'm up all night like tonight hating that I have to do this. Because I never want to be that manager that thinks no one deserves just one more chance, even when I know I can't give them any more chances. I don't want to ever be that manager that forgets what it was like to be an associate, to get up and not want to go to work but know that missing just one day could mean the difference between being able to keep the lights on or not. To be that manager that sees associates as just another tool, something to push and abuse so I can squeeze another few dollars into my bonus. I had a manager once who told me about firing a peer of mine and she was upset about it. Was she upset that she had to fire someone? No. She was upset she didn't make him cry. She prided herself on people crying when she fired them. Fuck her. Fuck shitty managers. Fuck the system that doesn't care about you. No matter what, remember you're worth. The Value's Wheel might be a joke now, but I will forever swear by two things I learned at Home Depot: taking care of our people and doing the right thing. And, unfortunately, sometimes that means having to let someone go. Thanks for reading my rant. I'm gonna try to get some sleep. Y'all be good.