I want to be happy again

I have been married for 21 years and I would say for the most part of those years it’s been good. Here in the last couple of years I started to see small changes in our marriage but since the last six months it has been really bad.

I can not seem to have a normal conversation with my husband without him getting upset or getting defensive. I can simply tell him that I am feeling as though he is not happy with me with his actions and which is usually pointing out my flaws rather it be speak them or look at them and when I bring that issue up he tells me I do not feel right that my feelings are wrong. If it is anything negative that he maybe doing It’s always my feelings are wrong and I do not need to feel that way cause it makes him look bad.

He is quick to anger, raises his voice all the time and never wants to hear what I have to say he always interrupts and always has to have the last word. Our kids as seeing this as well cause our daughter told him he is hard to communicate with and that just blew him up into another argument.

Our sex life has gotten to be a routine, we go to bed and he is tired and falls asleep but as soon as he wakes up he grabs that phone and stays on that for an hour then wants to have sex. I have no feeling anymore when we have sex I feel like it’s just sex and just to get it done.

He is constantly on social media scrolling through videos for hours and when you try to talk to him he gets upset. We can be spending time with all of our family and he is the one in the other room on his phone on social media.

The last six months I can count on one hand how many times I can actually say that I felt he was being real when he told me he desired me, all the other times it came after being on social media for an hour or longer then he comes onto me, it is a problem and I am getting tired of it.

What should I do? I do not wanna leave cause I am not sure how I would be able to afford to live and but my daughters medical stuff each month, I know he would not provide for them cause he has a brother that did not provide for his kids when his wife left him.