i hate my bf

i’m not sure if how i’m going to word this is going to make sense but i’m going to try

i had just ended a relationship with the love of my life a couple days prior to dating my boyfriend, he knew about that because we were friends before we dated and i told him all about my ex. a couple friends told me about how my boyfriend had a crush on me (i have this horrible habit to not saying to to people because i know how it feels to be rejected and it’s not nice, so i don’t like saying no to people) and i was like ahh okay he’s cute and he’s very sweet.

we started talking and then got together, but i never got over my ex. so i just tried to see how it would go. we say how much we like each other and it’s nice, he cares a lot about me and i don’t want to hurt him but i don’t feel anything for him really. he’s met my parents and they really like him but i just don’t know what to do.

obviously i’m going to speak to him about this but i don’t know if i’m an asshole or not