Ashamed. Do you feel like your narc doesn’t even like you?

I remember in the beginning he would be all over me. Hold my hand. Be gitty. Play footsies. Could talk about anything for hours.

Now… he’s on his phone. Ignores me. Addicted to whatever social media platform he’s scrolling at in that moment. So my friends start calling me. I pick up and chat with them in another room that’s quiet (tv is on while he’s also watching his phone for some reason both have to be on). He comes in and annoys me in the room. Does anything possible to get me off of the phone. Then guilt trips me because I’m not spending quality time with him (ya being on your phone is really that?)

We went to the movies. It seemed like he hated me. One word replies. Angry face. Crossed off body language. Wouldn’t hold my hand. I think he hates me and I feel unlovable. It’s like time with me is a chore to him. But oh wait… last night I went out for dinner with my girl friend. It’s a fancy Italian restaurant. I got texts from him saying I must be with a guy… even though I sent photos. Then he threatens to get our dog a new “mom”. I’m exhausted. I’m never dating again. I’m in therapy and oh my poor nervous system.