Why do I want a girlfriend who is ran through?

I been having these horny thoughts about dating a girl who has a high body count and idc if shes been around 200 men. I want that bad. I want her to have experience and be used. I really had a gangbang one time and I caught feelings for this one girl that was in it when I was doing it. I just find it attractive now when a girl has a high body count. Is there a reason or is it just me being horny idk?