I hate this place so much I'd rather be in hell.

It's hard to even make a post in any social media platform. I'm so sick and tired of everything and everyone around me. Exercise is not helping it just validates self-harm. Never had any sort of friends in high school, never made love, never had a life of any sort; and i'm so ready to end it. My life is endless pain; and I find comfort in suicide. I literally have nothing to look forward to and im so sick of it. Why did god put me here just to be miserable?????? I want to die so bad right now i'm basically just waiting for death and if it does not come, I'll do it myeslf.